FEAR AND HATRED

Hey guys, I have no choice but to blog about all this crap in the middle of the night but this is the only way I can express myself and make myself feel better. Though, this show the people out there how insecure I am.

Yes, I'm a very very insecure girl. Usually I seem all happy and sunshine in school, that's cause I've got my best buds with me. When I return home, all I have to do is rot there. Seriously, I'm 14, not 4! Stop treating me like a child. I know how to handle myself, I know how to plan for my own life. Yes, my OWN life. You own me, but you don't own my life. My life is what I plan myself, sketch myself and colour by myself. Not you (!) Not you, you don't control my life. Why do you want to destroy my happy teen life? Just because (maybe) you don't have a good one, doesn't mean you have to sabotage mine.

Do you even know how I feel? I guess you don't because you don't even try to understand me. You don't try to see the perspective from my point of view, from my eyes. We both have different thoughts, and you may have also realized that sometimes I talk to you reluctantly, that's cause I don't even know what's the point of talking and answering you anymore. I'm a teenager now, not a child. I have my own dream, my own thought, my own life, my own friends. If I have a car I would just ditch home and wander around the mall. Without any people nagging me, telling me craps, judging me and command me.
I'm not your maid, I'm not your assistant, I'm not some kind of stranger. Or am I (?) Cause I really feel like I've been treated like one. Where were you when I need you the most? Oh, out with your friends? I see, I hope you have a fun time while I suffer and rot at home. If I'm a friendless loser in school, I would have been dead by now, NOW I say!

Please, stop controlling my life. All I want is freedom. What all teens want.

Long Time No Post xD

Hi there! It’s been a long time since I last wrote something on this blog, which reminds me how many things have happened in my life this few month; sorry that i din't post for so long cause i was quite busy :) my friends keep on asking me why don't i post something rather than just leave it blank or dead :x so from now on, i'll try post moreeeeeeee ^^ let's back to normal xD OKAY?!? ^^


hMmM...........many things happen this few month and these few month makes me understand what true friend is :) so, i'll appreciate it more. got to go now!!!! Bye.......Love ya!!! :*

27th May!!

Heyy guys, how's life?? haha it's holiday now!!! and i enjoy it so much (: it's been a long time i din updated my blog ): dunno why i don't feel like blogging =P my lazy-ness xD Alright now we back to the holidays!!! OMG!! last friday, mean 27th i din went to school...guess where i go?? (i skip school WITH my parent's permission) I went Sungai Wang....to see who??? Linda Chung!!!!! OMG!!! Miss Koo!!! she was freaking pretty!!!! she came to promote her 3rd album <> the function starts at 8pm and i reach there at 3....wait for 5 hours but worth (: meet Shanice, Wei Yi, Freddy, Angel, Kailyn and Sequeena there....seriously, you guys rocks!!! love you guys!!! I missed the time when we were yelling KaYan and singing together. It is so nice! Hope to see you guys soon and also my beloved Linda!!! 


Here is some pictures at the function ^^

 the stage ♥

 Linda!!! I miss her smile♥

 cutee ♥

 Singing I'll Be Waiting For You ♥

the banner  ♥

 That's me & Linda!!! argh can't see my face ): but still thanks to the person who took this picture (: much appreciate (i did talk to Linda)=P

 <> with Linda sign and also my name♥

 <> and also picture that sign by Linda (thanks Linda Garden <--the fans club)^^

 I'm gonna head to bed now and dream of happy thoughts cuz I had a great day today.  Hope u guys have sweet dreams as well.  Sleep tight don't let the bed bugs bite....haha<--someone special say this before xD

I'm All Alone Now

Hey readers.
You know what? Sometimes, I really wonder who do I have to talk too when I'm down. Who can I share my everything with? Someone would just shut up and listen to me. Someone who would just stand by me and fight for me. Sometimes, I just feel so lack of love. I'm all alone. All I can do sometimes is just to emo myself, listening to my favourite songs, trying to cheer myself that way. But sometimes, I just failed too.

Iknowmyblogislackofupdate xD

Hellooo! Iknowmyblogislackofupdate. I AM SORRY D: Exam's in another 7 days! So yeah.... Need to study! I won't have much time to blog but after exam I will keep it update, okay?  Seriously got to go good this time ;D I'm gonna take back what I've lost. If you get what I meant! LOL xD..... So yeah! Good Luck everyone. 








Special for, ******. Sorry that i never talk much today, i was in a bad mood that time. Hope you'll understand me ^^ Promise that will talk much tomorrow :D Love You<3

Get Lost Please

Hey!! You IDIOT !! trying to be good infront of me and being evil behind me.......please don't think that i'm stupid. I really can't believe that you're that EVIL. I really treat you as my besttt friend, why must you did so much things to hurt me?? If you don't like me then don't act like you do. My love ain't a game, I've my limits. Don't piss on me.  You said you wanna explain to me. Then you went all blah blah blah, all NONSENSE!!! not important to me....not the  things that i want to hear from you. You always say that i don't understand you but how much do you understand me??Fineee.....without you, my life still ROCKS!!! I still have my true friend beside me. Please get off my life. I'll hate you forever.
Thanks to all who helped and cared about me today, thankyou. I love you guys<3

Truths of mine!

1. Real name : Natalie Goh Yong Chen

2. Nickname(s) : Nat / Yong Chen

3. Zodiac Sign : Aries <3

4. Male or female : Female  ( like durh)

5. Elementary School : SK Taman Bukit Maluri ♥

6. High School : SMK Taman Bukit Maluri

7. College : --

8. Hair color : Brown-Black XD

9. Tall or short : of course is TALL lah weih !

11. Sweats or Jeans : Sweats <3

12. Phone or Camera : Camera ! NIKON !!! CANON!!!!

13. Health freak : --

14. Orange or Apple : APPLE !!! <3

15. Do you have a crush on someone? : Yes !!!

16. Eat or Drink : Drink <3 

17. Piercings : Ears

18. Pepsi or Coke : Coke =)

GENERAL:

1. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life : 70% *clearing my list*

2. Do you have any pets : Yes...

3. Do you want to change your name : Nope 

3. What did you do for your last birthday : Eat alot of food <3

4. What time did you wake up today : 10 am 

5. What were you doing at midnight last night : Sleep ==''

6. Name something you CANNOT wait for : buying an I-phone4 ^^

7. Last time you saw your Mother : few hours ago....

8. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : become a millionaire

9. What are you listening to right now : JB's Songs

10. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? : Nopee

11. What's getting on your nerves right now : Linda is coming to M'sia this 27 MAY!!!!! HAHAHAHA

12. Most visited webpage : Facebook, Linda Garden, Youtube, Blogger, Twitter.

13. Relationship Status : Yesh.....with Shanice a.k.a my sista <3

14. Height : zzzz...Don't ask this please.....

15. What do you like about yourself? : Nothing.....><

16. Piercings : Ears 

17. Tattoos : Nope

18. Righty or lefty : Righty

 HAVE YOU EVER?  

1. Been in an airplane : Yes <3

2. Been in a relationship : thats a secret man =P

3. Been in a car accident : Nah

4. Been in prison : yes ! home prison !

 FIRSTS?  

1. First best friends : Justine Teh !! xD

2. First award : Kindergarden Drawing Award?? lol xD

3. First crush : dude this is private ....

4. First word: MOMMY

5. First surgery : Don't have yet

6. First piercing :  Long time ago....

7. First sport you joined : Basketball

8. First vacation : Thailand or Singapore?? i forgot ==''

LAST? 

1. Last person you talked to in person : Jinnee

2. Last person you texted : Jocy

3. Last person you watched a movie with : Wah! alot leh.....Apple, Jason, Jinnee, Edmond, Nicole, Jasmine, Felicia(all my cousins)

4. Last food you ate : Cookies!! <3

5. Last movie you watched : Never Say Never <3

6. Last song you listened to : Love Me by Justin Bieber <3

7. Last thing you bought : DOMO t-shirt <3

8. Last person you hugged : Friend??

 FAVOURITES?

1. Food : Pasta !

2. Drink : Apple + Passion fruit juice  xD

3. Bottoms : Shorts ! <3

3. Flower : ROSEY !!!

4. Animal : Puppy!!!

5. Colours : Purple, Black, White, Pink and Sky Bluee

6. Movies : Horror....NOT !!! Love stories i prefer<3 !

7. Subjects : English xD

 HAVE YOU EVER:

Put an X in the brackets if yes :)

1. [  X ] fell in love with someone  

2. [  X ] celebrated Halloween 

3. [     ] had your heart broken.  

4. [  X ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone. 

5. [     ] had someone question my sexual orientation.

6. [     ] got pregnant. 

7. [     ] had an abortion.

8. [ x  ] did something I regret. 

9. [ x  ] broke a promise.

10. [ x  ] hide a secret.

11. [ x  ] pretended to be happy.  

12. [ x  ] met someone who changed your life.  

13. [ x  ] pretended to be sick.  < LOL LOL LOL 

14. [ x  ] left the country. < due to what? 

15. [ x  ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it. 

16. [ X  ] cried over the silliest thing. 

17. [     ] ran a mile. 

18. [     ] went to the beach with your best friend.

19. [ X  ] hated someone. 

20. [ x  ] stayed single for 2 years

HAVE YOU EVER: 

1. Lost glasses/contacts : Always xP

2. Killed somebody : ==''Are you going to call the police if i say ''YES'?? lol

3. Been in love : Yesh

4. Dated someone twice : Yesh

5. Been cheated on : Yesh

6. Kissed someone & regretted it : Nope

7. Lost someone special : Nope

8. Been depressed : Yesh

9. Been drunk and threw up : Nope

10. Kissed a stranger : Nope

11. Drank hard liquor : Nope

12. Broke someone's heart : don't think so

13. Had your own heart broken : Nope

14. Been arrested : playin hide and seek? 

15. Turned someone down : Nope...

16. Cried when someone died : My dog? =(

17. Fallen for a friend : Nope

18. Sex on the first date : WOAH !!! too far man too far !

RIGHT NOW
1. Eating : Famous Amos's cookies!! <3

2. Drinking : Homemade orange juice

3. Listening to : I Will Be Waiting For You by Linda Chung <3

4. Sitting/Laying : Sitting.

5. Plans for today : facebooking until midnight?? LOL xD

6. Waiting for : 27 May!!! / Holiday <3

YOUR FUTURE: 

1. Want kids? : not sure ...MAYBE

2. Want to get married? : Maybee

3. Career : leave it for the FUTURE !

4. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship la of course ! *faint

5. Looks or personality : BOTH

WHICH IS BETTER :

1. Lips or eyes : Eyes<3

2. Hugs or kisses : Kiss

3. Shorter or taller : Taller!!

4. Older or Younger : younger la.....who want to be old?? ==''

5. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic

6. Nice stomach or nice arms : Nice Arms

7. Sensitive or loud : Loud

8. Hook-up or relationship : in relationship 

9. Trouble maker or hesitant : i hate both

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

1. Yourself : depends

2. Miracles : er ...sometimes

3. Love at first sight : Yeshh !!<3

4. Heaven : er YES

5. Santa Claus : hehehe ! kind of

6. Angle / God : Yes....

7. Kiss on the first date : Never =P

TRUTHFULLY: 

1. Is there one person you want to be with right now : Yes.

2. Do you know who your real friends are : Yes. xD

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

1. Made a new friend : Yesh

2. Fallen out of love : Nope

3. Laughed until you cried : Yesh

4. Met someone who changed you : yes...changed to more crazy xD

5. Found out who your true friends were : Yesh 

6. Found out someone was talking about you : Yesh

7. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list : erm.....PRIVATE....